“Don’t compromise yourself. You are all you got.”
Janis Joplin
Things might be much easier if I could keep this in mind at all times. Don’t get me wrong I am not putting myself in harms way or anything, but I do have a tendency to put myself second. I seem to offer unconditional help for the issues my loved ones and friends (sometimes even acquaintances) are going through, whether it is their fault or not. See in this exchange I forget about focusing on myself.
I mean have you ever found yourself putting others’ interests, happiness, and needs before your own?
As my grandma has told me many times, “You can’t take everyones stuff on as your own.”
So as a final push from comfort to courage I encouraged myself to focus on my own emotional needs. You know, be a little selfish for a change and put me first.
To start I took a little “me time,” time to think, clear my head, and reflect. I sorted out with myself the many things that I had been avoiding thinking of, such as relationships that either need to improve or need to be let go of.
I reached out and told people things that I have been needing to say. And whether the conversations were negative or positive I know they needed to happen, as I learned a few entries ago.
For the first time in awhile I felt a sort of relaxation. I took care of myself, which I need to do more often and I will do with more often. Because as Janice Joplin would say, I am all I have got at the end of the day.
And as my last entry for From Comfort To Courage I am more than content with beginning this journey. Because for the rest of my life I will continue to try to push beyond the boundaries I set my self and outside of the familiar. There through exploration of the new, you find growth.
Signed: From: Comfort To: Courage
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